I thought if I gave my blog a whole new look I'd be more driven to blog. And apparently I am. It's the start of the holidays and I am motherfckg glad because it's about time I took a breath.

I honestly do not know what is going on with my bestfriend. I thought things were going well for him and maybe I overlooked exactly how much he needs me right now and I am so sorry I'll absolutely die if he leaves so please don't go. I've been telling yu that at some point yu're going to find someone who is absolutely perfect for yu and yu got to have some faith and start believing. I know I've been preoccupied with other things lately and I keep putting off our dates, let me make it up to yu. Please answer when I call.

I want someone who will kiss me on the forehead when I’m sleeping. Someone who will wipe away my tears and tell me I’m beautiful and mean it. Someone who doesn’t compare me to anyone else, and who makes me feel like I’m the most important person in his life. (via runawaytrain)

Want want want. We're always wanting things we have not had/we cannot have. It shouldn't have to be this hard to appreciate what we already have, we shouldn't even have to be reminded to do it. It's sad but I think everyone knows it true. As for me, I am a lot insecure from all the mistreatments but I'm working it out and it's all for yu, babes. I am tired of having my guard up all the time so this time I'm really putting all of me out there. I really am thankful for yu, I love yu to death.

It is sad when people yu know become people yu knew. When yu can walk right past someone like they were never a big part of your life. How yu used to be able to talk for hours and how now, yu can barely look at them. People make bad choices when they are confused but if we're really going to let one bad time dictate, I guess that's the way it has to be. I wanted so much to explain myself but the more I thought about it, I really cannot give a damn because either way yu're going to think what yu believe. So let's just leave it at that now shall we.

No names mentioned, I guess if yu know me well enough, yu'd know who yu are.