I know I am too attached and it's really scary. I hate having to be so dependent, this is not who I am. Every time this happens, I alienate myself from my friends and now even my best friends and I don't talk much. In fact, we don't really talk at all. I don't blame anyone but myself because it was my choice to give in and I am supposed to be happy but why do I feel like my whole life is a mistake because it is in no way honest/good. I don't know why I am so sad all the time and I don't know what it is exactly that I am running from. I talk to people all the time to make them feel better when they're upset or when they have issues, so why won't anyone just help me?

Last night was the first time in weeks that I felt at peace with myself. I didn't want to leave that place, I wanted to be surrounded by those people and I wanted to keep listening to that music and I wanted to just keep watching the show. I want someone who understands that.

You don't give a shit about what I feel. All you care about is what you want, maybe you need to start thinking about what we need. I know I made my mistakes but I am done telling myself that I deserve this and I am done trying to get even with the past. It's not like yu've kept your promises anyway. I wish I was prettier or cuter or funnier or cooler so yu wouldn't ever compromise me. But that's never gonna happen.

My tweets have gone public - again.

Trudy are u having metal or ceramic braces? Which dental u get them?

Mine are metal braces!! I got them at NUH.

did you ever hate your ex-boyfriend?

Yes.