Sunday, April 3, 11:39 PM
Haven't been blogging and it is not because of anything else, I am just plain lazy. Yu know it is hard to blog when the one thing that yu want to blog about most, might as well be taboo.
I am blogging tonight not because I want to, but just because I need a space to rant. And a hundred and forty characters on Twitter is not sufficient and I refuse to succumb to flooding my followers' timeline because personally I get annoyed by people who do that. Even though I am fully aware it is their space to rant and if I am one of the followers I would have to deal with that..........anyway.
I'm upset tonight,it hurts on the inside. I need explanations and answers not from anybody else but from myself. What have I gotten myself into? My inner voice, my dreams they are always throwing me hints, telling me things that I should believe but why do I still live in denial? Because when yu love somebody that much, yu want the best for them if they wanted the moon, yu'd get it just for them. Yu try to be perfect try and do everything right but when yu slip for just one moment or when yu tell yourself "Maybe I should start trusting him more" everything just crumbles back down. Why does it take one small nudge to break something that I've worked so hard to keep standing? Yu try to be the best but they keep pushing yu away, they only want yu for the wrong reasons. And yu find out that yu are not all that they want, if it's possible - through any way, they want more. I have been through heartbreaks I have been cheated on, lied to in the face - and I promised that I would be so careful with the people I give my love to just so that I don't ever feel like that again. But tell me what happens when the one person that yu love just won't love yu back the way yu want them to? Tell me what happens if your best is not good enough, tell me what happens when the person yu give everything to looks forward to seeing strangers they don't even know instead of yu. Because I really don't know what happens then.
I guess it's been too long I have to start accepting the facts. It will never be as dreamy as it was before.
I am blogging tonight not because I want to, but just because I need a space to rant. And a hundred and forty characters on Twitter is not sufficient and I refuse to succumb to flooding my followers' timeline because personally I get annoyed by people who do that. Even though I am fully aware it is their space to rant and if I am one of the followers I would have to deal with that..........anyway.
I'm upset tonight,it hurts on the inside. I need explanations and answers not from anybody else but from myself. What have I gotten myself into? My inner voice, my dreams they are always throwing me hints, telling me things that I should believe but why do I still live in denial? Because when yu love somebody that much, yu want the best for them if they wanted the moon, yu'd get it just for them. Yu try to be perfect try and do everything right but when yu slip for just one moment or when yu tell yourself "Maybe I should start trusting him more" everything just crumbles back down. Why does it take one small nudge to break something that I've worked so hard to keep standing? Yu try to be the best but they keep pushing yu away, they only want yu for the wrong reasons. And yu find out that yu are not all that they want, if it's possible - through any way, they want more. I have been through heartbreaks I have been cheated on, lied to in the face - and I promised that I would be so careful with the people I give my love to just so that I don't ever feel like that again. But tell me what happens when the one person that yu love just won't love yu back the way yu want them to? Tell me what happens if your best is not good enough, tell me what happens when the person yu give everything to looks forward to seeing strangers they don't even know instead of yu. Because I really don't know what happens then.
I guess it's been too long I have to start accepting the facts. It will never be as dreamy as it was before.
Well I can't explain why it's not enough
Cause I gave it all to you
And if you leave me now
Oh just leave me now
It's the better thing to do
It's time to surrender
It's been too long pretending
There's no use in trying
When the pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore
The pieces don't fit anymore
Oh, don't misunderstand how I feel
Cause I've tried, yes I've tried
Still I don't know why
No I don't know why